Looking Back, Moving Forward

2014 was one for the books. I am thankful to say it was full of incredible experiences from which I've grown in countless ways. From spending a few nights in snowy Michigan with a dear friend, to wandering the streets of Portugal and Spain, to reconnecting with old friends against the New York City skyline, to caving in Kentucky, seeing family in Atlanta and eating all the food in Portland... it's hard to believe I've had so many incredible opportunities this year. Sprinkled in between those trips were many little moments that are just as worthy of gratitude: moments that taught me how to be a better partner and friend, moments that reminded me of the importance of self-trust and self-worth, moments that reminded me to show up for each day and give whatever I could.

The year ahead feels like a giant blank canvas, and I'm excited to see what it will look like in the end. There will be some big transitions this year, and while I'm a little nervous, I'm looking forward to the opportunity to grow and build a new life. I am ready for a change.

I've been thinking a lot about the idea of choice lately. One of the perks of being a freelancer is the plethora of choices, of ownership, you get to have every day: which projects to take on, what pitches to write, what your value is, what standards you have for your work. I've been so enveloped in choices as a freelancer that I've forgotten to step back and look at the plethora of choices I have in how I handle my personal life as well. The idea of choice is an empowering one, but for some reason not always an obvious one. We can all choose to look at our problems with curiosity rather than anger. We can approach our futures with hope rather than crippling panic (admittedly, I struggle with this one the most). We can choose action over worry; compassion over indifference. We can choose to take a leap of faith or remain in a situation that doesn't serve our values. 

There are always a million things swirling in my head about what I'd like to change in my life, but for 2015 I want to work on the intention behind each choice. To remember that I always have a choice. Plain and simple. It can make or break us. Life will always throw curveballs no matter how careful or calculated we try to be, and this is the best reason I can think of to continue in the pursuit of passion, exciting opportunities, unknown chances. The pursuit of choice.

The past year has been really good to me, and I look forward to welcoming 2015 with open arms and heart.

What about you? What will you choose in the coming year?